"Smiling outside but crying inside"
Yes, I have been through a lot these past few days. It doesn’t show at all mainly because i find solace from my husband and my constant communication with God. Yes, “with God” I may not literally hear his response but I am feeling it. Weird though, but once you try to focus and believe, you will surely feel it. Life is a constant learning process. Challenges come but once you have stood and crossed that rough & tough road, try to look back and you will realize how blessed you are. Yes, easy to say but sturdy along the way, just learn how to deal with it in SILENCE. At times, it only takes some “quiet time” alone, that moment when you feel within you that spare strength you still have to stand up still and hold on to.
Others may not have to know what I am going through because I know that I am not the only person on earth living the roller coaster ride of life. I try to live to inspire others, and it is not my personality to let others divulge in my personal issues. In as much as I can, i try to smile and look okay, who knows, they are much in pain now & is having hard time dealing with it, and with my positive disposition, I can in my own little way influence them to look at the brighter side of life.
At the moment, I am trying to look at the bigger picture, think multiple times, reflect, pray & communicate solemnly with God, appreciate life’s simple pleasures and let things go with the flow. With all these, i forget the past, i live for today & i pray for tomorrow. Do the righteous thing and let God do the rest.